Goodbye 2017, Hello 2018

Hello good people!


Today is the last day of winter holiday. I really just want to spend it lazily. Well, we (me and Mas Yu) will have afternoon tea double date together with my bestfriend and her husband ๐Ÿ™‚ But; in the morning I am free, I almost finished my abstract for March conference so I decide to wake up late and spend the morning writing about 2017. A dramatic year full of drama, I guess. What happened in 2017? Let me just give me a quick review!


2017 started with mega drama number one. Since everything is over now and I have made peace with the main actor, I really cannot mention the content of the drama here (however, I have a little review about that here).

That time everything was quite blurred I guess. I would not make it without my best friend and in total four times visit from my parent and my sister. During spring and summer, I had a little stolen holiday to Kyoto and Osaka, as well as Izu and Nagoya with good friends.


In terms of academic, actually nothing changed much. I am right now Doctoral Second year student, first semester. This year I managed to attend 3 conferences (2 national (Chemical Society of Japan and Biocatalysis Symposium) and 1 international, Biotrans at Hungary). I also try to speak about science in Science ใชใ† event! I also found myself a new interesting topic about synthesizing drug derivatives.

In lab? It is getting more complicated but still very fun, as one of the oldest right now I have 12 kouhai in total with 2 directly under my supervision. Challenging but still happy! I wish we all can do research with love and dedication, and I can somehow be a good role model ๐Ÿ™‚

My focus next year will be more of computational study (crystal structure refinement) and docking study; plus writing my publication! I will have to start thinking as well about my future career, meaning searching for a faculty position or post-doctoral position in Japanese university.


This year I tried also to post more on my youtube channel and do vlogging (which I found to be quite fun!). I know what I am doing in youtube is not that โ€œtrendingโ€ or so called eye-catching, I am just doing it for fun (but with my heart into it). Ah, I also learn to wear hijab more often, trying to incorporate it with my own style ๐Ÿ™‚


All of these things happened together with mega drama number two and mega drama number three. Really cannot mention the content of the mega drama number two however I have a little snippet here and there. I guess I am quite content with the problem solving of mega drama number two right now.


And mega drama number three? Finally I am completely releasing myself from my toxic love relationship for 4 years! Here is the snippet, yes, Mas Yu found me ๐Ÿ˜€ together with wonderful friends from Kanagawa International Student Music Festival!!


although we are so far away from settling down. We need gazillion works to be done to face our huge barriers. But to be honest, I am completely at peace. We learn something new everyday, kudos for him for his patience and willingness to learn.


In the end, I wrap up this year with a peaceful state of mind.

What are the keys?


  1. Self acceptance

I am accepting myself right now, I am not the smartest and I am slow at doing things. But whatever, I keep moving forward slowly everyday. I mean, my dear family, bf, and best friends, they are all able to accept me with my strength and especially, weakness. Why should I be reluctant to accept myself?

  1. Not trying to please everyone

I learned the hard way this year no matter how hard you try to make someone like you; they will not do that if they do not feel that way! So donโ€™t try to please people, be yourself. They will love you if they love you.

  1. Listen and care only to those who really love you

Not all things should be heard and be put into the deepest core of our heart. Follow your heart, listen only to those who matters the most.

Critic will always come to your life. If they come and bother you, just ask yourself two questions. 1) Have I put my heart while doing it? Have I done my best? 2) Do I have good intention on doing this? If the answers are yes, just proceed. Itโ€™s the right thing for you.

(Yu, 2017)

Actually actually, those beautiful words in point number 1 to 3 is not mine. I should put some reference…. thank you Yu Teguh golden ways, lol.



So that is all for my 2017.

I do not have big and detailed resolution for 2018. I am only taking baby steps cherishing everyday and be grateful to Allah for all of His blessings.

Well, I have to publish a paper and search for job this year, hopefully postdoc or academic position in Japan. These are the only focus.


Goodbye, 2017.


Bismillahirrahmanirrahim welcome 2018 โค



With loads of love,


Afifa Ayu Koesoema


I will be myself

Hello all!

Getting cold now and it’s been raining since yesterday, probably until the end of next week. So, i’ve just spent my super late summer holiday in Indonesia. Coming back to the lab, everything is just pretty much the same. Experiment and writing my manuscript.

Just gonna write a little before sleeping.

My heart is feeling unwell today. (lately).

That’s probably what happen if you try to cut yourself from your comfort zone of 5 years already >.< *geez that’s quite long, uh?* but that’s not the main point!!



So, lately I have this feeling again of everyone’s moving away so fast. People keep moving forward with their wonderful and full of accomplishment/achievements life (that they show in their social media, i do not know the real struggle, though).

Talking about social media, probably I am always honest at my social media. When I felt sad i will say that I’m sad. I am not really filtering my post so that my life will look perfect or fairy-tale-ish.

And the truth is now like this : people are super fast and shining and sparkling, while I am here with my baby steps and my matte color, lol.

But I guess it’s okay. It’s okay to always be the silent one. Silently works behind everything. Harmless and underdog. Has nothing to be brag about. Not a cool kid? That’s okay, as long as you’re still alive and moving forward, it’s completely okay.



The most important thing?

I have my goals (and reaching it with my baby steps, lol) and I have to make peace with myself. Probably I have my plus point as well compared to those shining creatures, lol.

But I guess I will just be myself and make peace with myself.


There are a lot of wonderful little things in front of me now.

Might not be as shining as what they have but at least I have secured myself a topic for my publication, and… I will talk about DNA to public in November.. and I will play piano in a concert in December, will dance and sing as well… and I will be in charge of my favorite class, International Communication Biology stuffs ๐Ÿ™‚


Just record this quickly to uplift my mood.



With a load of love,



Afifa Ayu Koesoema




IKuburan : Cinta Bom Waktu

Hello all โค

I begin to become more productive in this blog writing now i guess ๐Ÿ˜€ so, last week i had a performance again with Kuburan, if you don’t remember them, they are the scariest band in Indonesia, as mentioned in this post.

This time it was for their new single promotion, Cinta Bom Waktu! This single was funny, energetic and catchy like usual. The keyboard/synth part really brought the atmosphere of tokusatsu, at least in my opinion~


Official Photograph of Cinta Bom Waktu

So i had two performances with them on 4 June 2014, one in Oz Radio and one in Rase FM. The performance in Oz Radio was a Ozclusive performance and it was hilarious because they brought up the theme of Agnes Monica. They are making a tribute to Agnes Monica. I think that their performance always consist of some surprise elements ๐Ÿ˜€



The second performance, Rase FM was done at Festival Citylink for a Rase Cinta Indonesia Tampil event ๐Ÿ˜€ it was a usual single promotion performance.


RCI Tampil

RCI Tampil

If in the last performance i dressed up as a Cinderella and as a matador princess, in this opportunity i dressed up as a CAT! ^^ Okay, i wore a two pieces cat-suit, tights with shocking color, cat headband, and cat make-up, unfortunately i did not have the gut to paint whisker and cat nose on my face, so it was just cat-eye make-up, a very heavy smokey eyes, very long fake eye lashes, and super red lipstick.

Cat Invasion to Oz Radio!

Cat Invasion to Oz Radio!

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So the performance in Oz Radio was really fun. We played 3 Agnes Monica’s songs and of course their newest single, Cinta Bom Waktu. First we played Rindu, which was okay and serious, it was really identical to the real song. After that was Bilang Saja, although we made a new arrangement but it did still sound normal. But the most epic part was Tak Ada Logika, in which they include a solo sundanese violin opening part, nembang part, reggae rhythm as well as jazzy piano solo. What a combination โค

prayers :D

prayers ๐Ÿ˜€

The performance :D

The performance ๐Ÿ˜€

After The Show!

After The Show!


The performance in RCI Tampil Rase FM was also nice and we only played Kuburan’s song. We played Euis, Fatamorgana (the lyric of this song is incredible, you should hear it), the legendary Lupa-Lupa Ingat, and of course Cinta Bom Waktu. This performance was like a live performance and many people watched us with high enthusiasm. And as you know, for a musician, high energy from the audience could really lift up our spirit and enabling us to play music better! โค

<img class="size-medium wp-image-820" src="https://afifaayukoesoema.files.wordpress.com/2014/06/2014-06-05-16-35-04_deco.jpg?w=300" alt="we play music and we have fun we play music and we have fun โค
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After the show !

After the show !


and i also baked them some cupcake ๐Ÿ˜€


well, i hope that i can still have performance again with them before i depart to Japan! and folks, don’t forget to request their single Cinta Bom Waktu at local radio!


With loads of love,



Afifa Ayu Koesoema